Car Trouble

Collar turned up against the cold he walks to his car. Alone. Not for the first time he regrets ever taking the job. It has alienated him from his family, his friends, and her. It is she that he misses the most. The way she laughs, the way her eyes lit up when she saw him come in the door, the way he felt when he was around her

He can feel himself falling apart. Being without her has made even the slightest things tip him over the edge. He took it out on her; now he doesn’t know what to do. No one cares to talk to him. He is alone. He fights his battles; trying to figure how to get back to her. He keeps on failing. He needs her so bad it hurts inside. He often wishes he had the courage to let the pain out. He often wonders if it would help.

He wishes he could take back the attitude that he had shown her. Wishes he didn’t even have a dark side. But he does, and he doesn’t know how to let it out. He wishes he could be perfect, wishes he didn’t have his problems. But when he looks at the big picture of his life, when he looks around in retrospection, on inter reflection. He would rather have every problem in the world, than have her have any.