Clarifications... Maybe just muddying the water...

I am very happy with Jenni. I reread the poem I just posted, and it sounds like I'm not. That comes across that way if you read it without thinking the way I am I guess. Everything with her is perfect right now, it's just when I'm not with her...

When I'm not with her I feel so empty so alone. Hollow. I find myself jaded to the world when she isn't around with me. I feel lost and afraid when she is gone... I guess when I'm gone really. She keeps the world and my fears at bay from me. She keeps the happy thoughts around, she is most of the happy thoughts, and so I find myself not wanting to leave when it's time.

No one can replace that feeling in me when she's gone. And it's blinding when I'm here in my room, and all the people coming and going can't remove the pain of the migraine for a laugh. Can't pass the vertigo away with a smile. She doesn't take away the symptoms, but when I'm with her I feel better...

I don't know. I took too many advil, so I'm kinda loopy. 5 migraine strength, plus the tylonol I had at home... too long ago... And the Rx is taking affect and I'm falling asleep...

Wish me sweet dreams. And may wonderful slumber fall on you.